It never fails.
I get all ramped up for starting a new storyboard. I have a good outlook and tell myself I can do all this work and still have time for the other things I want to do. Like write a blog post :). I get the little things around the house done that I didn’t have to time to do during the last storyboard. During ‘hell week‘. I’m free and clear to sit down and work.
Then it happens.
I sit and sit and stare and stare. I get up, I sit down. I get up and do things I shouldn’t do. The things that working from home draw you to. Like check email. Like see what Britney did today. Like clean the bathroom. Then I say. “Enough! Get to work!”.
And I sit and I sit. And I stare and I stare.
This could go on for days. It’s horrible.
Then the bad thoughts show up. “You do this every time!” “Why can’t you just get it done?” It’s not really procrastination because I’m still there. Sitting. Trying. My brain is everywhere but where it should be. My silly, unfocused brain.
Then…a little trickle of drawings manage to come from my pencil. Finally! OK, here it comes…little by little and not nearly enough. But it has started. The drips of creativity. A little bit of optimism to make me get up and try again the next day. It’s still not enough and I start to worry about the deadline. Always worrying about the deadline…because I’m neurotic that way.
The little glimmers of panic are on the horizon. I feel them coming. I get a bit more done but it’s still not enough. More panic. More feeling bad. Then finally…
Look at me go! Page after page, drawing after drawing. What was I worrying about? I’m fine. This will get done. No quality lost. Just clear and focused and getting the thumbnail drawings done. Silly me! Telling myself bad things. Thinking the worst. Geez, I’m flying through this stuff. Then before I know it and in amazing time, the thumbnails get done.
Whew. The ketchup finally flowed.
I hate that ketchup bottle, but it’s the story of my work life. I don’t think it will ever go away. I guess I just have to accept it. The thumbnails get done and life continues. Then it’s on to the final storyboard panels.
And it happens.